Scars are inevitable, unavoidable even. Usually followed by hurt and disappointment. Some come and go, some fade, some stay, as a reminder of a place you should'nt visit again.
Whether you're 5 and fall off your bike or 15 when you get stiches from a fist fight or 25 when you get drunk after a heart break. Scars are good and bad. And we've all had our fair share. Some visible and some not so much anymore.
The worst kind though are the ones that seem never to appear because you leave the wounds open. You don't let yourself scar only because you hurt yourself over and over again right at that same spot. There's no admission of being hurt and you won't let it scar. Out of sight, out of mind. It will get better, you keep saying to yourself.
Denial.
I'm Okay, I will be patient, It will change, It will get better... It takes time, so maybe next time around it won't happen again. Maybe we can talk it through and work on it. Maybe it was bad timing and distance.
Hope.
We can do this, we can hold eachother's hand through this. We're better than this. We will change for the good because we can.
Trust.
What if Hope and Trust are the wounds? What if you keep hoping and keep trusting and still hurt from it?
How can you scar from hoping and trusting when they are feelings?
You can't scar from them, can you? Or so we think...
Disappointment.
If you keep going back to the origin of whats painful and dig a-fresh when will you let it heal?
And if you stop hoping and stop trusting, then you've given up. Is that such a bad thing if it makes you feel better in the long run? Would you be thankful at the end of it all for not letting the pain drag on?
Or maybe, just maybe even giving up after a certain point will begin to hurt, because you would then wish that you had worked harder and maybe, just maybe (hope) it would get better.
At what point do you say, enough? At what point should you realize that you cannot hurt yourself further by simply trusting and hoping things will get better?
How then can you let it scar? What measure will you use to remind yourself that things may not change.
Realization.
It's probably the worst kind of pain. But it may be a good scar to wear on your sleeve.
It aches the most. You realise that you're hurting from simply trying. Each time, the harder you try the worse the wound.
But if that realization leads you to give up and you lose your hope and faith would you then not be scarred for life? Or are we all simply in denial and never learn from our mistakes? Because, after all, we're just human. We're damaged goods anyway.
And in being so, we're all vain and want to be perfect, scar-free. Inevitably we're going to be fools and try again, trusting that this time it will be better and eventually realize that we hurt, ache, scar and still chose to hope for the best.
Perseverence.
