Okay, henceforth this place is going to be my Diary...im going to put forward questions for you, (this applies to the sane people) you can advice me on what to do about my situations...Deal?
I'm simply complicated, atleast i like to believe so, coz it makes me feel important, no im not dillusional or attention seekin.
Now i'm repeating, only if u are sane and can handle my confused and dazed state will you give me advice...ok? got it?


So, here goes...

I have the very prestigeous BMM board exams comin up next week. i shud be studyin but i find that most of my day goes into lookin at my computer screen. Now here's why...i keep lookin forwrd to meetin this particular person online...we dunt tok much but when we do...it cliks.
I feel like i can trust this person. Talk to them about things i wudnt usually tell myself in the mirror...i admit my flaws (not that i have many) and i even let them into my deepest darkest secrets... the flaws r not skin deep.
I feel a kind of attachment there...and im dead sure its one sided...how do u deal with sum1 who may or may not be real? sum1 who may/maynot be lying about thmselves ...sum1 u dunt knw at all...and yet you do. Some one u think is there, but juss may be a prank and yet you giv into them, let them see the real u....my question is, WHY?
is it that we find a real connection with people we dont see? do we feel safer and more comfortable tellin strangers (who may or maynot exist) what we really are about? has it come to that stage where we no longer can look some one in the eye without doubting them, doubting our trust in them...
or do we depend on technology to build our relationships....
or are we simply intrigued by wht we cannot see? are we juss curious creatures....maybe the attachment is real because the other person (who may or maynot be real) is sum1 u think is ur comfort zone...u at the other end...