It's been a while since I wrote... I've been too numb to feel alive... But I've let go of things that can hurt me...

This one's for the one person who's had the power to hurt me the most...

IT WAS POURING OUTSIDE

I HEARD NOTHING BUT ONE DROP OF RAIN
FELT NOTHING
NOT AN OUNCE OF PAIN
THEN IN THE SILENCE THAT WAS SO COMFORTING
I HEARD THEIR SCREAMS
IN PAIN
IN PLEASURE
I HEARD THEM CALLING OUT HIS NAME
I SAW THEIR FACES
FIRST HERS
THEN HERS
AND THEN HERS
NONE OF THEM WERE MY FACE ANYMORE
HE'D NOW HAVE PLENTY AND THEN SOME MORE
I SAW THEM MOVE LIKE I DID
SAW THEM LAUGH LIKE I DID
SAW THEIR LIPS FORM THE THREE WORDS I HID
SO EASY TO LET GO OF TRUST
TO LET GO OF LOVE
BUT NOT LUST